Just Keep Singin

Summer

2009-06-04T12:22:00.000-07:00

I am almost done with my teaching contract for the year. It's bitter sweet, mostly because of being so comfortable there.
I love the summer time! This summer I will be a manager-in-training at Sonic. It's going to be a wild adventure, but fun I hope.
Well, to update you--we got a puppy last year. Her name is Lady and she is the sweetest. But, before we got her we bought a house. Its very cute and very old. It's in a old section of town. It was built in 1927!! Beautiful. We are fixing it up for now and deciding whether to go or stay later :)
We are currently making many decisions for our future. We are hopefully going to enter a new phase in life soon. We are just growing up so fast :) as my granny would say. But it is very fun. And I can't wait to see more of God's great plans for us....

so tired

2008-03-18T19:39:00.000-07:00

well i must say i am soooo tired and i need a vacation! the 3rd nine weeks is almost over for my little 2nd and 3rd grade students and i am so freakin glad.
this weekend is a long weekend and i get to hang out with my husband...yea!!!!

Confused

2008-02-08T13:05:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I feel so confused about what I need to be doing. Or what I want for that matter. I am currently at this job that I hate. I have always wanted to teach music, yet no doors have even been cracked open at this point. It's a little sad. I want to move on with my life and get settled down. I want a baby, but it's not the right time for that either.
I guess these are all things that I should not be worried about. I know that God will provide--he always has. And yet I still have this desire to control my own life. I need to read the Bible more. I know that is my number one problem! I just don't even know where to start to get closer to God right now. It's been what feels like forever, but only since the beginning of the school year, that I've had real communication with God. I want to feel His presence.
We are going to a concert tonight with some awesome worship leaders and I pray that my husband and I will be so humbled by our Savior. That the one who died on the cross for us will wake us up out of this Jacksonville selfish smog!

what a long week

2008-01-30T15:35:00.000-08:00

So.....Daniel and I are extremely exhausted. Him probably more than me, because he has a full time job and goes to school full time and I just have a full time job and I'm taking one class with him. But I do help him immensely with his school work, especially the online stuff!
Anyways Daniel has been working 10 hour days. Yes, that means he goes to work at 5am. And, oh, thats bad for me because I get up and fix him breakfast and lunch for him everyday. I know I'm crazy, but I just believe I should. Every other girl I talk to thinks that is bogus, but I love my man!!
Another thing is that my class has been totally bad lately. But the Lord knows what he's doing (duh), because one of my bad kids, Hunter, has been absent the last three days---woohoo, for now that is. When he gets back I have to catch him. Booooo! Then, today one of my students, Alex, gets suspended for the rest of the day because he won't shutup. I'm sorry, but that kid needs a good whoopin' and to be suspended for 3 or 4 days! And no video games! But kids are too spoiled for that these days. Back when I was in school if you got suspended it was bad, at least for me it would have been! I wouldn't get Tv, phone, internet, or anything else I considered fun. It would be like living in prison, or, worse, hell!
I don't want to bore you much longer with my life, but I do want to say how much I trully love, love, love my wonderful husband! It's been 1 1/2 years of divine marriage as of yesterday. I love hime!!
Well so long, until next time!!

wow! long time no talk!!

2008-01-23T16:51:00.000-08:00

Well hello anyone who is listening...
It has been a very long time since I have written on here. I am now very happily married, graduated from college, and have a real job. My husband and I live in the huge and awful city of Jacksonville. We both hate it. We hope to move back to Panama City this summer. That is if I get a teaching job there. I am currently teaching 2nd and 3rd grade at Lighthouse Christian School. Let me just say, teaching elementary school is not for me. I have learned that through this experience and hopefully won't have to go through this again! :)
Daniel is going to college full time and will hopefully complete his AA this semester. He is also working a full time job with occassional mandatory overtime. It sucks, but he has great benefits, whereas I do not. So, it works out!
Well it's been nice catching up. Maybe I will keep up with this thing. It can be my way of venting about work. I have plenty to vent about. But for now--I'm out.

love fat!

2006-01-22T14:24:00.000-08:00

well there really is no excuse for the extra weight i've been gaining except the fact that i'm in love. i'm engaged. so i'm incredibly comfortable. this comfort has become unhealthy for my body! i really need to start working on healthiness. its so hard to be healthy in this day and age though! there's cars to get us around. drived thrus to feed us in a hurry, not to mention microwave dinners. well lindsay its time to stop with the excuses. i have to lose some of this fat. i don't care near as much about the weight as i do the fat. the fat is holding me back from being healthy. if i'm not careful i'm gonna get heart disease or diabetes. i know i'd hate that.s o i just need to put down the burger and fries for a while! so if you see me driving into a drive thru run me off the rode. (just kidding) if you see me on a treadmill or walking to school say good job!

just another saturday

2006-01-21T10:37:00.000-08:00

as the title says--today is just another saturday. i am looking forward to the day that daniel and i no longer have to work or take classes on saturdays any more!! we can just sleep in, be lazy, or go out if we want. it was nice not to have to get up early this saturday though! and i went to bed at like 1130 or 12 last nite and got lots of sleep till like 945. thats really good! but now we are both about to have to rush off and do our own things for awhile. it sucks~i have to go to work and he has to go to class then to work. so who knows when we'll get to see each other again. but oh well, the day is coming when we will be together all the time. can't wait!!!

love

2006-01-19T22:15:00.000-08:00

i am so in love more and more everyday with my honey!!! he's absolutely wonderful. tonite i got to surprise him. when he got off work i had gotten him a card. and bought him some ice cream. thats our favorite snack to eat together. it was incredibly romantic cause we ate it while listening to my favorite romantic cd (ruben studdard cd) and in candlelight. it was so wonderful. i love him so much!!!

traffic school

2006-01-11T19:11:00.000-08:00

well i've been working on traffic school online for like 2 weeks now. its soooo freaking boring. but at least my insurance won't be boosted. and i won't have any points. and i can keep my good driver discount.
well i gotta go order my school books

i'm back

2005-12-28T10:18:00.000-08:00

well i'm back to the ville for a few days. but on friday night we're outta here again. thank God! this place is awful. i really am wanting to finish up school and get out of here. i want a big city. i'm ready to stretch and not feel crowded! well i guess big cities are crowded but its a different kind of crowded. well i'm engaged!!!!! i'm so excited. now we can start planning things for the wedding without being all secretive! yeah!!!!!!!
so christmas vacation was lots of fun. we left on wednesday. we hung out with tyree and some others that night. then on thursday. fed ex came and i thought nothing of it when daniel was acting all weird and hiding stuff. i just thought it was a xmas present. so all day he was showing people my ring and i never even knew. he did when i was away. we went to lunch with steph and she saw it. john came over. and he saw it. then that night his dad saw it. then we were supposed to be heading out to the beach to meet up with john and some other guy to hang out. but daniel and john had planned everything out perfectly! john went out ahead of us to this vacant part of the beach and set up a blanket, some candles, some wine, cheesecake. it was amazing. but when we got there it was pitch black except for the candles. but from where we were walking it looked like someone was just having a bonfire. i thought it was cute. then i asked daniel where everyone was and if we were just comin out to walk on the beach and he said i don't know just keepgoing. so we kept walking but we were walking toward the "bonfire" and i was like what are we doing. he said i don't know just wait and see. so we get up to the blanket and i realize there was candles and stuff laid out. and i'm speechless cause it was so sweet. but then he's turns to me, gets on one knee and asks me to marry him and puts a beautiful ring on my finger. it was amazing, but i could hardly speak b/c i was so shocked. but i did finally say yes. i guess i was so shocked cause i wasn't expecting this till around february at least!
well anyways. needless to say i've been smiling ear to ear ever since then! and telling the world! hahaha.
well i already can't wait for my new years vacation. we're goin to pc friday. then maybe jax on new years!
but untill then i must clean house and work! woohoo.

ready to go

2005-12-20T08:23:00.000-08:00

i am so ready to get out of here. i hate graceville. its way too small for me. i can't wait to leave with my man and go to jax and panama city for christmas! i can't wait to see our families. and just spend time out of this time warped old town! and away from the college. i live so close i can't get away.
this christmas is gonna be so different. i'm visiting my future in laws before christmas. we're gonna exchange presents and hang out with his fam. and visit with some friends i'm sure. his friends are all so nice and accepting except this girl liz cause she's jealous of me--hahahaha! i got him first! daniel and tyree say she's no competition for me anyways though!
so anyways. on christmas eve we're gonna travel to see my family. i'm gonna go to a great christmas eve Lord's supper. then hang out with my family some more. then on christmas day its gonna be hectic. we're gonna wake up, open presents at our house, eat some breakfast, then go to the christmas day church service. i'm sure its gonna be nice. then we have to go to two more houses. both sets of grandparents. poor daniel-i don't know if he's ready for it, but i guess he's gonna have to be...hahaha.
i can't wait to give presents this year. i feel like i did so good. i got stuff that i knew everyone liked and i got some awesome bargains for them!
well i'm gonna go get some stuff done today before i go into work, cause i get to leave this awful town tomorrow, tomorrow, its only A DAY AWAY!!!!!

money

2005-12-15T08:59:00.000-08:00

money sucks!! i don't have any. thats why it sucks. hahaha. i wish i could do so much more for christmas this year than i am. but i just can't afford it. but i did get a little ahead. i did some shopping this summer for my sis, mom, and tiff. and i bought some extra stuff. so thats always nice. so now all i have left is daniel-which has been hard to pick for but i think i know what i want to get him now, my daddy-i already know what i'm getting him, and my brother-and i know what i'm getting him too. so now all i need to do is go get the last of these presents!
oh crap i left one off. daniel and i have to go get momma darlene her present.
oh well we still have a little while. well at least till next tuesday.

feelin the love

2005-12-14T14:34:00.000-08:00

man am i ever feelin the love right now. i just called my mom to talk and catch up on stuff and she of course has to get into grades. well i had to tell her my grades from this last semester. well let me tell you i took 2 kick butt classes this past semester. philosophy and english were really bad. my english class was only hard b/c none of my papers that i wrote were good enough for my teacher even if i corrected them according to her notes and revised them. it was insane. so i got a d. my mom flipped which i can understand b/c i never ever make a d in english, i'm good at english. but then i told her why and she didn't even care. she said that was no excuse. then she went off on a tangent about how it wasn't her life though. so she should just let me screw up my own life. wow. that pisses me off. i dont think i'm ever gonna be good enough for that woman. oh well. if i make it through school it will be a kick in her ass. oh wait i've already made it farther than she ever did. anyways. i love my mom but it pisses me off that she takes me to be stupid and irresponsible. yea classes were hard this time around and i should've studied harder but it'll be better next time. i took 4 real academic classes in one semester. that was hard! well next semester will be better!!!
anyways. christmas is coming up and i can't wait any longer! daniel and i were gonna go to miami for a few days starting on sunday, but we decided it would be smarter for our wallets-sake to stay home and work a few more days. but on tuesday nite we're goin to momma darlene's house(his mom). i'm excited. i love going to jax. its always fun and there's always so much to do. and Lord knows i'm not usually happy unless i'm gettin into somethin! we're gonna have christmas with her on friday. then drive to my house on christmas eve and hang out with a bunch of family. then go to the christmas eve service that i am so looking forward to b/c its always good! then christmas is sunday!!!! i can't hardly wait. we'll get up and hang out with our immediate family and open presents at the house. and daniels gonna be there for our first christmas together!!!! i love that man. then we're gonna go to the christmas church service at 10. then after that all hell will break loose. cause its gonna be so hectic. we have to make appearances at two grandparents house to eat and open presents which is soooo rediculous, but i'll have to get into that another day.
anyways. just to make this shorter i'm soooooooo excited and i can't wait to celebrate Jesus' birthday for the first time with the man i will be with for the rest of my life, and to know for sure that we get to tell our children about this special day! i can not wait!!!!
well yall have a great rest of the day!

thank the Lord!!!

2005-12-12T09:04:00.000-08:00

i am finally done with the fall semester! it has been one of the hardest semesters academically. and i have had many distractions and difficulties and crazy things happen and amazing things happen. but i did get the man i'm gonna be with for the rest of my life this semester---daniel adkins. i love him with every bone in my body! he's amazing and just awesome. i'm crazy about him. and to top things off we're getting married this summer!!!
now we are both just working our butts off to make some money cause we'll probably try to pay for all the wedding stuff. and we have to buy rings. and we have to stay really focused next semester so we can make really good grades so we can get out of here. so all that means that i have to grow up! no more slacking off in school or just not going into work. i ahve to work all the time and play on the weekends. sad i know but its gonna be so worth it to be with my baby daniel!
i've got the whole wedding planned out. now all we have to do is buy the stuff and inform the florist and find a photographer. oh and tell my pastor. oh ha and tell my parents. hahaha. just a small detail. oh well i'm not freakin out. everything is gonna be fine!!!
well gotta get back to work so i don't get in trouble.

thanksgiving

2005-11-29T12:46:00.000-08:00

well just wanted to let yall how great life is going! my man daniel is so wonderful. he's the one. its so great! we went to his house for thanksgiving. it was fun. we ate wayyyyy to much. but thats thanksgiving for ya! we went to his dads on thursday, moms on friday, hung out on saturday, then church on sunday. hung out more then came home.
and now i'm just trying to pass the semester. but now i have a crap load of work to do so i gotta go.

kicking and screaming

2005-11-14T14:18:00.000-08:00

so this weekend was so fun! i went home with my boyfriend of almost 4 weeks. i know its fast but we love each other. oh yea i used the word love. sorry to all you people who say its fake and that it can't happen. but i'm so against that you have to be together for a long time bull s&!# theory. its soooo not true. my weekend was so fun and relaxing i left kicking and screaming. it made me realize how much i am ready to move on with life and get out of graceville! daniel and i are gonna get married and move off to a big city and i can't wait! we talked about that yesterday on the way home.
synopsis of the weekend:
friday night we got to st augustine at around 715. we hung out with daniels sis jennifer and her boyfriend mike for about an hour. just chit chattin and getting to know each other. then we got ready and went to this amazing columbian restaurant. it was expensive but it was sooooooooo worth it. i had a mango rum tea, "pollo-something i can't pronounce" hahahaha, and daniel and i split a dulce de leche cheesecake. it was sooooooo good. then we walked for a bit. hung out and talked at the condo for a little while. then we all went to bed.
saturday we woke up and got ready to see the town. we got bagels at this place called schmagel's bagels. it was sooo good. i got a blueberry bagel and some great coffee. then we walked around the downtown area for a while. then headed into jax. but first we stopped by coldstone creamery for some ice cream. it was the best of course. i went to meet daniels mom at the house. we sat around and talked for a while. i got to know all their pets. and they all loved on me. it was cute. even sammy the cat who doesn't warm up to anyone likes me. then we went to meet tyree and stephanie. they are nice. tyree's 2 girls were there, katlyn and brianna. beautiful girls. stephanie was crazy. she's alot of fun. i guess they are 2 of daniels close friends. then we went to his dads and ate dinner and hung out. they're cool. we're going there for dinner on thanksgiving. (we're going to his moms on friday after thanksgiving) afterwards we went back to tyree's to hang for a while. then went to walmart and back to his momma's house to go to sleep.
sunday we went to worship service at first baptist jax. it was nice. i love going to big churches. i stay more focused in a big crowd. then we went out to lunch with his mom, jenn and mike, anthony, carlos, and john. they are crazy and loads of fun! then we had to come back. that is the part that sucked. i had to come back so early cause i had a performance for womens ensemble. but then we went out after with some friends of ours tif and clay. we went to taco bell in dothan. then watched some tv and went to bed.
so that was my weekend. and today was nice cause i got to see my daniel alot. i love him so much. and i can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. aint that cute, i stole his line. he's always tellin me that.
well gotta go work on some homework.

stupid library!!!!!

2005-11-07T18:51:00.000-08:00

ok i need to vent about how stupid and useless the library is at my school!! i'm trying to write a paper for my english class. of course the subject is sooooo stupid, but so is the class! my teacher is absolutely rediculous. she has me doing a research paper on the orontes river. i've never even heard of the place. this is so rediculous!!!!!! so i can't find anything on this place of course and it has to be done the thursday before thanksgiving. i hate school. i can't wait to be done.

anyways. other than school, life is going pretty great. well that is with daniel. he's so great STILL. i can't believe he hasn't changed his mind about me. how do i deserve someone like him. he's so great!

the only problems i'm having now are with my 2 best friends. my sister i think is getting jealous that i might get married before her. i guess she always pictured herself getting married first. and i guess she's jealous of the time i spend with daniel. but i spend just as much time with him and she does with her boyfriend. and my other best friend is giving me hell. i don't know what the crap is her problem. one second she's all giddy and happy for me and how happy i am with daniel. next second she is cutting and attitude with me and stops acknowledging that i'm alive. i don't know what the deal is. maybe she's just used to be devoting all my extra time to her, but times are changing just like they did when she got married!

well ladies and gents. i gotta go do some homework.

posting too much?

2005-11-01T19:29:00.000-08:00

today i got told that i post alot. i thought it was so hilarious. i do though. this is my way of expressing what i feel and getting things out. its a good way to vent. anyways i know he was kidding. keith just likes to pick at me!
well things are still going well
daniel and i had our first disagreement yesterday. it was scary but so cute afterwards! it was over something important, but it was just a misunderstanding of words. anyways. we kissed and made up so its all good. i love him!
well schools starting to get old real quick. i'm ready to be done.
oh yea--i get to meet daniels parents in jacksonville for thanksgiving. i'm so excited, but a little nervous. well i get to meet them next weekend actually, but i'm going home with him for thanksgiving! its crazy, but i love it!
well i gotta get to work.

excited but nothing to say

2005-10-31T13:51:00.000-08:00

you guys ever have those times when you're totally excited about whats going on in life but you don't really know what to say or if you should say anything? well thats me right now. i am just so impulsive i want to blurt everything sometimes, but i know i just need to be patient. i will tell you this though---i love daniel adkins.

well i'm gone for now. catch yall later

last weekend working at the hellhole

2005-10-28T22:31:00.000-07:00

yea!!!!!! i'm almost done with chick fil a!!! i just gotta work 11-7 tomorrow then i'm g ville bound to see my man! hopefully i won't have to work til 7. maybe tai will be nice and let me off early!!!! work at the pig is going good. learning everything pretty fast. its not that hard though!
tomorrow night i get to go out with my boyfriend! oh by the way i told my daddy how serious we are and he was so perfect. he likes daniel and knows that we're gonna be together forever! he's even happy for me! i'm so happy!!! <333
well i'm gonna head to bed. you guys have a wonderful night!

in love

2005-10-27T19:28:00.000-07:00

well i know it sounds abousolutely crazy--but i am in love. its so fun.
i started my new job on tuesday. my second night was tonite. its not so bad actually. its pretty decent. this weekend is my last weekend to work at chick fil a. thank God!!! i have to work friday nite and 11-7 on saturday, then i get to come home. and spend the rest of the weekend with my boyfriend!! we're probably gonna go to church with meg and wes this weekend, that is if meg doesn't change the plans as usual.
well thats about all thats going on right now.

bcf just cracks me up!!

2005-10-25T19:37:00.000-07:00

bcf is so funny to me! daniel and i walked around the lake yesterday 3 times (at bcf that means you're getting married--told you my school is stupid!). we did it just to see how many people would say something to us. it sooooo worked. it was absolutely hilarious how many people came up to ust today to ask when we're getting married! anyways thats just how boring the ville is. hahaha.
then there are some people who i don't think are happy for us. i mean i know that everything happened fast, but we love each other. there's nothing else to it. shoot, these people have no room to judge. i just think they're too immature.
i met some more peole tonite. two of his really good friends. they are so much fun and really sweet. the four of us are going to church and out tomorrow nite. it will be fun.
oh my gosh i almost forgot to tell yall i got a job today! at the piggly wiggly. it'll be different, but at least i can stay in town and daniel and i can get involved in a church together. i think it will be good for us.
well thats the most exciting stuff happening in my life right now. so i'm gonna go do homework now. have a great night!! <333

great days

2005-10-24T17:52:00.000-07:00

i would just like everyone to know how much i love daniel adkins. yes i just used the term love. i know that sounds so stupid and typical of baptist college of florida students. but danget i am not just another statistic to add to those of bcf who just got married just for the heck of it. i never ever ever ever (do i make myself clear) thought that i would meet someone at THIS college! but danget when you're not looking God just seems to bless you in ways you never thought possible! i really just love the word i used earlier to describe what i feel for him---SMITTEN! that is the greatest word. to me it means i can't stop thinking about him. i pray for him all the time. and oh my gosh he met my parents this weekend. and my dads side of the family. thats a big deal considering we've only been together for 5 days. but what people say is so true--"when ya know ya know!" my family loved him. its great. i've never met someone so selfLESS and who thinks about what they can do for me all the time more than daniel. he's sooooo amazing!!
so the funeral went as well as a funeral can go. tiff and erin and mrs. pat are 3 amazing women. they took it better than i ever could!!! it was a great service though. bro don said exactly the write words. God spoke through him as usual. he talked about how great a man and how much a family man mr. jerry was. it was so nice!
so other than that stuff, i'm still working my 2 jobs. i'm gonna go to the piggly wiggly to see if i can get a job tomorrow though. so that way i don't have to go home anymore and daniel and i can get involved in a church.
well i'm gonna get back to "work" now. ha. that means i'm gonna do my homework now! <333

happy as can be!

2005-10-21T22:07:00.000-07:00

wow life is good right now. i just want to praise God for how everything is! schools a little hectic but thats just school. my family is healthy. my bills are paid for now. i have food to eat. i have a car. God even decided to bless me with a wonderful man in my life! gosh danget daniel adkins is so freakin awesome. i couldn't have asked for a better man. he is so selfLESS. he's just amazing. i can't believed God thinks i deserved someone as great as him. God is good!
i went to the viewing for tiff's dad tonite. it was a little hard not to cry. but it wasn't all sad. jerry lewis was a christian and a godly man at that! he's now in heaven. he has touched many lives. i even heard a story that b/c of the witness he showed while he was alive that there was a guy at a local high school who wanted to know how to become a christian. how exciting. he left a legacy thats worth something. he wasn't famous by any means but he was one of the nicest men i've every known! tomorrows the funeral. our last good byes to "dad." but i just want to remember that its not a sad thing. now mr. jerry's not in any more pain. and he won't every have to suffer again!
tomorrow nigt i get to go back to the ville to see my man. i'm so excited! its sad--we can hardly go a day without seeing one another. hahaha.
well yall have a great rest of the weekend. <333

wow!

2005-10-20T19:41:00.000-07:00

oh my gosh. i think i'm just smitten. daniel adkins is so amazing. i'm so glad i did not settle for what i had! no more tony, no more jerald, no more stupid LITTLE boys!!!
this is so crazy cause i just got to know him starting yesterday. we can hardly spend anytime without each other. i started teasing my roommate that we were turning into to a replica of her and her man. like a week or two ago i was the girl practically gagging just looking at how love sick those two are, but now its me. so silly.
well i gotta go do some homework. yall have a freakin awesome night! <333

faster than a blink

2005-10-20T11:58:00.000-07:00

well guys yesterday one of my best friends' daddy died. it was very sad. i'm pretty close to that family so i gotta go to town this weekend to go to the viewing and the funeral. it happened so very fast. i just talked to tiff monday about all this. and they were told he had a week to a month left. and now all the sudden he's gone. it was the best situation though. he died in no pain and at home. i'm glad for that.
well other than that i finally met the guy in the philosophy class for real. we had dinner at the house wtih keith and lins last nite then we went to look at a house for keith and him to live in next semester. then to dothan cause everyone knows there's nothin to do here! it was so amazing. i really like him. and he asked if we could go out again and Lord knows i wanted to scream. but i calmly just told him yes. woooohooooo! he's such a cutie.
well back to work. have a great day!

chillin in the ville

2005-10-17T14:18:00.000-07:00

well its monday and as usual nothing exciting is happening. just going to classes and hanging out at work. but today i introduced myself to this really cute guy in my philosophy class. he's really sweet.
i'm a little sad b/c i found out that my childhood best friend's dad is dying. and he only has probably a week to a month left. this just breaks my heart and hurts alot cause he's one of those father figures in my life. i love him and his family so much. so please pray for his family!
other than that school is going fine. grades are going up a little so thats good.
talk to you guys later.

feeling a little more accomplished

2005-10-13T13:18:00.000-07:00

well today i am feeling a LITTLE more accomplished. i just always feel so behind lately. like i forgot something, or i have SOMETHING ELSE to do. oh my gosh. there's always so much to do. i have this due in one class. and paper due in another. too crazy for me. but today i got some homework done here at work. now i need to start working on practicing my voice stuff cause my lesson is tomorrow and the Lord knows i'm never prepared for that. and i have a test in psych tomorrow.
i'm hoping to hear about a job soon. i applied for a job at a church as basically a childrens intern. but i still haven't heard about that and thats been at least a month ago. so i'm over it. now i'm waiting to hear about a retail job that my best friend has been trying to get for like a year. she said they are needing some part-timers at night again. so she's putting in a good word for me AGAIN. keep your fingers crossed--or better yet just pray for me!
well this weekend will be fun! i'm going home friday to work, then i'm gonna go see my family who is out at the state park camping right now. then on saturday i'm gonna work 11-7, then hang out with nicholas. and probably go camp out with the fam for one nite. woohoo. it'll be interesting as usual!
tonite i'm gonna keep my habit of walking when i got off work. then i'm gonna hit the books for a little while after dinner. then probably walk a little again. tring to shed a few pounds! :) but other than that fun stuff i won't be up to much. wouldn't want to break tradition of living in a boring little country town. hahaha.
have a wonderful afternoon and night!

blah blah blah

2005-10-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

ok so today has definitely reminded me of the jingle "blah blah blah." its just been blah for real! last nite i babysat for my boss. then i went to go get some stuff from a friends house. by the time i got back it was 230. so i skipped my 9 oclock class. which i guess is ok. but i was out of sync the rest of the day. so now i'm trying to work extra hard to get back on track. but oh well. thats the price i pay for trying to be social while in college. no sleep. ha.
well now i'm sitting at work being totally bored! as usual. but hey i'm getting paid so i guess its ok. but i just am not motivated to do homework while i'm here. i need to go to the library. i need 5 sources to start on a paper. and i learned today that i can write a 12 page paper for philosophy to get extra credit. and i'm supposed to be writing 2 article reviews for psychology. and i think i bombed my old testament midterm. thats gonna suck!!!
i gotta tell you about this cutie in my philosophy class. he's the future roommate of my roommate's boyfriend. it's crazy. my roommates trying to introduce us. its funny. well anyways it was a feel good day b/c he was totally looking at me in class today.
well i guess i should get busy writing and studying.

a new chapter

2005-10-11T12:47:00.000-07:00

this weekend was a crazy one. i've had alot of things go on lately. i've started realizing that, yea, i did alot of growing up this summer, BUT it was not the end of the growing. i've been working on the concept that God is enough in life. i don't need anything else. but thats a hard concept to swallow. there are so many temptations and things that i enjoy that i just should not be doing, but some of these things are almost like a drug to me. i enjoy them, so i try to justify. well its time to stop. i've hurt too many people who mean so much to me. i've realized that these things aren't just hurting and effecting me, but also my best friend, my roommate, my other best friend aka my sister, and most of all my family. i've been such an awful friend and person lately. well i've said i'm going to quit many times, but i am just so hurt and i've hurt the people that mean the most to me so much that its really time to quit this time. its jsut time to grow up! and that means i have to leave all my childish and immature relationships behind. its time for a new lindsay. one who turns to God when she's tempted. and when she feels alone. it feels so good to pour my heart out like this. but i'm such a creature of habbit. it's gonna take some really hard work to stick this out. but i've got great friends and the Best Friend ever-my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ-to help me out. i just wish i could fast forward time a little so it wouldn't hurt so much!
well school is going well. its overwhelming as usual. i am taking 16 hours though. but i want to graduate and thats what its going to take.
anyways i had a great weekend spending time with one of my best friends nicholas. he's one crazy guy. but he's going into the army. and i will miss him so i'm spending as much time with him as possible. we watched a movie and stayed up late on friday. then we went to play pool and stayed up late again on saturday nite. then he came to see me sing in church on sunday. i was so excited, cause nicholas doesn't make it to church very often. then we went to a movie. it was fun just spending time with him. but then i had to come home and do homework. that sucked. i had a midterm on monday that i had to study for, but i think i bombed it. but i hope not. i gotta make the grade!
well i'm gonna go be bored at work for another hour and a half or two.

life

2005-10-07T12:41:00.000-07:00

i am so blessed with a wonderful best friend and roommate! my best friend lets me vent. and my roommate gives great advice. i am very grateful for both.
last night a door closed in my life. i'm so glad, i've been trying to push it closed for a couple weeks now. but it was not in my hands. but i finally got closure and it feels great. but this problem messed with a good thing thats going in my life. so i'm really confused right now. i just don't want to get so involved with someone to find out that i'm being played. its a little scary.
well this weekend i have to go home again. gotta work tonite and tomorrow. then i gotta sing at church on sunday. i really want to find a job here so i don't have to go home every weekend. i have been going home to work almost the whole time i've been in school, and i'm ready to really live on my own for a while. don't get me wrong, i love my family but its hard to grown up when you're with them all the time!
well gotta get back to class. yall have a great friday!

too much

2005-10-06T13:45:00.000-07:00

dude life is so boring and yet so hectic. i have these papers do in this class. a quiz everyday in that class. some stupid poems to analyze in another. some of my classes just seem so meaningless to me. i guess i'm just ready to be done. but hey next semester i will be a senior. and after this semester i will only have 3 semesters plus some summer classes! woohoo!!!

plus i'm just plain bummed about my jobs. the one here at the school doesn't bother me too much. i just don't like office jobs. but the one in pc i absolutely detest! i don't get paid enough and i'm in a management position. plus i just don't like going home every weekend. but i'm gonna try to find a job in chipley or dothan. work a few nights a week. and during the day on saturday. and find a church around here.

i'm really sad that my man lives 30 minutes away. he used to live here in town back in the day when we first started dating. it was nice. i saw him almost every nite. but i know he was miserable living in this town just like i am. so i think its best that he lives where he does cause i want him to be happy and stay focused the way he is right now. man i love him!

well enough complaining. i got to chill with my best friend today. we took a 20 minute nap. and watched days of our lives. and we cleaned the kitchen together. and just got to hang out. i'm so glad we've been able to do more of just that this semester. last semester was just too hectic for us. last nite we got to go to labambas together. its our fave restaurant. it was her, wes, and me. but it was wednesday, wes' only nite off so we just ate dinner and then i went back home. but i had so much fun! i hope to get to do that more often once i get a decent paying job!

well this has been fun, but i'm gonna go for now. have a wonderful day!

I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND!!!

2005-10-05T15:08:00.000-07:00

Just incase you guys didn't already know....I have the most amazing best friend in the entire world! Today we came to amazing discovery that we can't stay mad with one another very long! Thats just great! I fixed her spagetti for lunch because she's been really busy and needed a good meal!

can't help lovin that man of mine

2005-10-05T13:08:00.000-07:00

did you know thats the name of a song. its an old song. but it describes how much i love my man. he's crazy. people ask why. but i just can't help lovin that man of mine! he's so cute wish i had a pic to share with yall!! i will soon hopefully. i got to see him last nite. it was so fun. i always get so excited to see him cause he lives 30 minutes away and i don't get to see him often. i might even get to see him tonite. my roomie wants him to come down cause she's not going to pc for church tonite. she has to study for midterms but she wants to hang out with us so she can place her seal of approval on him....hahahaha!!! that cracks me up! well i gotta go for now.

so bored!!!

2005-10-04T09:35:00.000-07:00

hey guys i am so bored. tuesdays and thursdays are my work and homework days. i have two classes. one at 830 am which i hate! its english 152. my teacher is the devil. she's awful! and then i have another at 1230pm. but at least i like that class! its womens ensemble. its fun. its my time to just sing and not worry about things. and the rest of the day i work. which normally means i go in and run some erronds then do my homework the rest of the time. but my boss is the coolest. well i gotta run for now.

daddy's little girl

2005-10-03T18:21:00.000-07:00

well today i got this email from my daddy. you guys need to know how much of a daddy's girl i am. it has really been hard to be such a daddy's girl lately. we're on two totally different pages. its getting hard to grow up. you see, i love someone that he has said is not welcome in his house. these words were said because the man i love has not always been the best to me. he has had to learn the hard way in alot of things lately. he has decided to grow up finally and i love him so i'm gonna be there for him. he's working so hard and i see the change. but my daddy's just so protective and so its gonna take alot of time for him to see that. i hope he comes around soon! i just wish he knew how i felt about tony. i wish i could tell him the things tony and i talk about. our future! its really hard to talk to my parents now even though they still act like none of this ever happened. they love only me. that hurts. i want them to grow to love tony. in alot of ways i am really jealous of my sister. because her boyfriend has not always acted like a man either. it was just a month or so ago when my parents were forbidding her to see him. but now all the sudden he's proven himself to them. i hope my day comes along. man i love that boy! i mean man actually!
well other than that life is going well. its busy though. i wish i could get done with school faster. i'm starting to think about this summer too. i think i might be staying at school to take some classes. i gotta get done with school! plus if i go to school around here at the community college in dothan i may be able to go to school with my best friend. and maybe even talk tony into taking some classes.
well guys---lots of homework, so i gotta run!
as meg would say----
holla back----woot woot!!!

continuing our conversation!

2005-09-30T14:15:00.000-07:00

ok...so back to our conversation! i was telling you how awesome my family is. i forgot to mention today my sis turned 18. i can't believe it!! she's all grown up. it makes me feel old. so anyways. i have a little sis and a little brother. i'm the oldest. as you know my sis is rae. my little bro is john william tyler! he's one crazy little man. he's spitting image of me. haha. in other words he is such a cutie! hahaha. just kidding. he is a saxophone player. and he plays baseball. my mom is just the coolest friend a daughter could ask for. i know somethings i don't talk to her about, but most of the time i can talk to her. she's so awesome! we weren't too close till i went off to school. then i found out how smart she is! and my dad. man what can i say. i'm the #1 daddy's little girl! he's my number 1 fan! when i'm down my daddy can give me a hug and cheer me up!
well anyways. i have another really cool friend named tiffany. she and i have been good friends since the 6th grade. but this summer we moved to miami together for 2 months. it was such a once in a lifetime kind of experience! she's one cool chick. anyways. we met lots of cool people this summer. #1 on the list would be our new friend chrissy. she is so awesome! we get to go see her in december if everything works out. and of course i have to mention all our friends at for you miami. its an organization that helps start churches in miami. its a five year thing that the florida baptist convention put together. sadly they close in december. but thats who tiff and i worked for this summer. we did vacation bible schools all summer. it was so fun!
well so on to a new subject. i'm sitting here at one of my jobs being sooooo bored cause there's nothing to do. i have two jobs: i work in the music office at my school during the week and i work as a manager/team leader at chick fil a in panama city on the weekends. its exhausting! cause i'm also taking 16 semester hours at school right now. but after this semester i hopefully only have 2 more semesters of classes and one semester of student teaching. thats so crazy for me to think about cause i just feel like i started the other day but at the same time i feel like i've been here forever and a day. but this is my fourth year. but i'm looking forward to my student teaching because it'll give me a chance to see if teaching in a classroom is what i really really want to do.
well it seems as if i'm running out of words. so yall holla back. and talk to ya later.

Just Keep Singin

2005-09-30T12:53:00.000-07:00

today i started this blog. i didn't even know what a blog was till the other day. i knew my best friend and my roommate had one but thats about it. so i guess its about time i step up in technology.
i just want to start off by saying my best friend is megan ann clark brezina. i love that girl. i was in her wedding as maid of honor. and i sang! her husband was an old crush of mine. and now he's one of the coolest friends i have! when i don't know how to talk to meg i ask him....hahahaha! well me and her aren't doing so good right now b/c i'm growing up and i'm changing alot. i've always been a goody-two-shoes and since i've hit 21 i've done some stupid, fun, and crazy, non-lindsay things. i hope she can forgive me. cause i love ya meg!! i'm starting to define life for myself now. and i guess i'm having to make mistakes and do some trial/error stuff. but i'll come around eventually i promise.
now i want to tell you about my man. tony. i love that boy so much. we were together off and on for a year and a half. and before this summer we had a big falling out. and i dated one of his old friends. that was so stupid. and i complicated things. but we didn't talk for a while needless to say. but then a couple weeks ago he called and told me how much he missed me and he would do whatever it takes to get back with me. so now after a lot of drama we are finally slowly working things out. we decided to be together again officially on wednesday nite. and i am so happy! we have so much growing and changing to do but he promised we can make it work. so we're sticking together!
i also have a new roommate. she's soooooo awesome. she listens and gives good advice. but she's never too nosy. and if i want to be by myself she leaves me alone. i've never had a better roommate. and her boyfriends pretty cool too! hahaha. but anyways. i just want to thank her so much for supporting me in all the decisions i make!
and now i just gotta tell you about my awesome sis. you know meg is my best friend but blood is very thick. my sister rachel michelle has been through everything with me from her first day here. dude we hated each other till i graduated high school. but man we are so close now its crazy. we recently have gotten even closer cause she is just growing up so fast its scary. i love and look up to that hottie so much!! thats for you rae. love yolu so much!
well my family is so kick butt its crazy. they have supported me through everything! i'm a music major and its hard but they are there through thick and thin! i love yall. i'll have to tell you more later cause i need to go do some homework.
love yall
peace