a new chapter

this weekend was a crazy one. i've had alot of things go on lately. i've started realizing that, yea, i did alot of growing up this summer, BUT it was not the end of the growing. i've been working on the concept that God is enough in life. i don't need anything else. but thats a hard concept to swallow. there are so many temptations and things that i enjoy that i just should not be doing, but some of these things are almost like a drug to me. i enjoy them, so i try to justify. well its time to stop. i've hurt too many people who mean so much to me. i've realized that these things aren't just hurting and effecting me, but also my best friend, my roommate, my other best friend aka my sister, and most of all my family. i've been such an awful friend and person lately. well i've said i'm going to quit many times, but i am just so hurt and i've hurt the people that mean the most to me so much that its really time to quit this time. its jsut time to grow up! and that means i have to leave all my childish and immature relationships behind. its time for a new lindsay. one who turns to God when she's tempted. and when she feels alone. it feels so good to pour my heart out like this. but i'm such a creature of habbit. it's gonna take some really hard work to stick this out. but i've got great friends and the Best Friend ever-my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ-to help me out. i just wish i could fast forward time a little so it wouldn't hurt so much!
well school is going well. its overwhelming as usual. i am taking 16 hours though. but i want to graduate and thats what its going to take.
anyways i had a great weekend spending time with one of my best friends nicholas. he's one crazy guy. but he's going into the army. and i will miss him so i'm spending as much time with him as possible. we watched a movie and stayed up late on friday. then we went to play pool and stayed up late again on saturday nite. then he came to see me sing in church on sunday. i was so excited, cause nicholas doesn't make it to church very often. then we went to a movie. it was fun just spending time with him. but then i had to come home and do homework. that sucked. i had a midterm on monday that i had to study for, but i think i bombed it. but i hope not. i gotta make the grade!
well i'm gonna go be bored at work for another hour and a half or two.