i'm back

well i'm back to the ville for a few days. but on friday night we're outta here again. thank God! this place is awful. i really am wanting to finish up school and get out of here. i want a big city. i'm ready to stretch and not feel crowded! well i guess big cities are crowded but its a different kind of crowded. well i'm engaged!!!!! i'm so excited. now we can start planning things for the wedding without being all secretive! yeah!!!!!!!
so christmas vacation was lots of fun. we left on wednesday. we hung out with tyree and some others that night. then on thursday. fed ex came and i thought nothing of it when daniel was acting all weird and hiding stuff. i just thought it was a xmas present. so all day he was showing people my ring and i never even knew. he did when i was away. we went to lunch with steph and she saw it. john came over. and he saw it. then that night his dad saw it. then we were supposed to be heading out to the beach to meet up with john and some other guy to hang out. but daniel and john had planned everything out perfectly! john went out ahead of us to this vacant part of the beach and set up a blanket, some candles, some wine, cheesecake. it was amazing. but when we got there it was pitch black except for the candles. but from where we were walking it looked like someone was just having a bonfire. i thought it was cute. then i asked daniel where everyone was and if we were just comin out to walk on the beach and he said i don't know just keepgoing. so we kept walking but we were walking toward the "bonfire" and i was like what are we doing. he said i don't know just wait and see. so we get up to the blanket and i realize there was candles and stuff laid out. and i'm speechless cause it was so sweet. but then he's turns to me, gets on one knee and asks me to marry him and puts a beautiful ring on my finger. it was amazing, but i could hardly speak b/c i was so shocked. but i did finally say yes. i guess i was so shocked cause i wasn't expecting this till around february at least!
well anyways. needless to say i've been smiling ear to ear ever since then! and telling the world! hahaha.
well i already can't wait for my new years vacation. we're goin to pc friday. then maybe jax on new years!
but untill then i must clean house and work! woohoo.

ready to go

i am so ready to get out of here. i hate graceville. its way too small for me. i can't wait to leave with my man and go to jax and panama city for christmas! i can't wait to see our families. and just spend time out of this time warped old town! and away from the college. i live so close i can't get away.
this christmas is gonna be so different. i'm visiting my future in laws before christmas. we're gonna exchange presents and hang out with his fam. and visit with some friends i'm sure. his friends are all so nice and accepting except this girl liz cause she's jealous of me--hahahaha! i got him first! daniel and tyree say she's no competition for me anyways though!
so anyways. on christmas eve we're gonna travel to see my family. i'm gonna go to a great christmas eve Lord's supper. then hang out with my family some more. then on christmas day its gonna be hectic. we're gonna wake up, open presents at our house, eat some breakfast, then go to the christmas day church service. i'm sure its gonna be nice. then we have to go to two more houses. both sets of grandparents. poor daniel-i don't know if he's ready for it, but i guess he's gonna have to be...hahaha.
i can't wait to give presents this year. i feel like i did so good. i got stuff that i knew everyone liked and i got some awesome bargains for them!
well i'm gonna go get some stuff done today before i go into work, cause i get to leave this awful town tomorrow, tomorrow, its only A DAY AWAY!!!!!

money

money sucks!! i don't have any. thats why it sucks. hahaha. i wish i could do so much more for christmas this year than i am. but i just can't afford it. but i did get a little ahead. i did some shopping this summer for my sis, mom, and tiff. and i bought some extra stuff. so thats always nice. so now all i have left is daniel-which has been hard to pick for but i think i know what i want to get him now, my daddy-i already know what i'm getting him, and my brother-and i know what i'm getting him too. so now all i need to do is go get the last of these presents!
oh crap i left one off. daniel and i have to go get momma darlene her present.
oh well we still have a little while. well at least till next tuesday.

feelin the love

man am i ever feelin the love right now. i just called my mom to talk and catch up on stuff and she of course has to get into grades. well i had to tell her my grades from this last semester. well let me tell you i took 2 kick butt classes this past semester. philosophy and english were really bad. my english class was only hard b/c none of my papers that i wrote were good enough for my teacher even if i corrected them according to her notes and revised them. it was insane. so i got a d. my mom flipped which i can understand b/c i never ever make a d in english, i'm good at english. but then i told her why and she didn't even care. she said that was no excuse. then she went off on a tangent about how it wasn't her life though. so she should just let me screw up my own life. wow. that pisses me off. i dont think i'm ever gonna be good enough for that woman. oh well. if i make it through school it will be a kick in her ass. oh wait i've already made it farther than she ever did. anyways. i love my mom but it pisses me off that she takes me to be stupid and irresponsible. yea classes were hard this time around and i should've studied harder but it'll be better next time. i took 4 real academic classes in one semester. that was hard! well next semester will be better!!!
anyways. christmas is coming up and i can't wait any longer! daniel and i were gonna go to miami for a few days starting on sunday, but we decided it would be smarter for our wallets-sake to stay home and work a few more days. but on tuesday nite we're goin to momma darlene's house(his mom). i'm excited. i love going to jax. its always fun and there's always so much to do. and Lord knows i'm not usually happy unless i'm gettin into somethin! we're gonna have christmas with her on friday. then drive to my house on christmas eve and hang out with a bunch of family. then go to the christmas eve service that i am so looking forward to b/c its always good! then christmas is sunday!!!! i can't hardly wait. we'll get up and hang out with our immediate family and open presents at the house. and daniels gonna be there for our first christmas together!!!! i love that man. then we're gonna go to the christmas church service at 10. then after that all hell will break loose. cause its gonna be so hectic. we have to make appearances at two grandparents house to eat and open presents which is soooo rediculous, but i'll have to get into that another day.
anyways. just to make this shorter i'm soooooooo excited and i can't wait to celebrate Jesus' birthday for the first time with the man i will be with for the rest of my life, and to know for sure that we get to tell our children about this special day! i can not wait!!!!
well yall have a great rest of the day!

thank the Lord!!!

i am finally done with the fall semester! it has been one of the hardest semesters academically. and i have had many distractions and difficulties and crazy things happen and amazing things happen. but i did get the man i'm gonna be with for the rest of my life this semester---daniel adkins. i love him with every bone in my body! he's amazing and just awesome. i'm crazy about him. and to top things off we're getting married this summer!!!
now we are both just working our butts off to make some money cause we'll probably try to pay for all the wedding stuff. and we have to buy rings. and we have to stay really focused next semester so we can make really good grades so we can get out of here. so all that means that i have to grow up! no more slacking off in school or just not going into work. i ahve to work all the time and play on the weekends. sad i know but its gonna be so worth it to be with my baby daniel!
i've got the whole wedding planned out. now all we have to do is buy the stuff and inform the florist and find a photographer. oh and tell my pastor. oh ha and tell my parents. hahaha. just a small detail. oh well i'm not freakin out. everything is gonna be fine!!!
well gotta get back to work so i don't get in trouble.