excited but nothing to say

you guys ever have those times when you're totally excited about whats going on in life but you don't really know what to say or if you should say anything? well thats me right now. i am just so impulsive i want to blurt everything sometimes, but i know i just need to be patient. i will tell you this though---i love daniel adkins.

well i'm gone for now. catch yall later

last weekend working at the hellhole

yea!!!!!! i'm almost done with chick fil a!!! i just gotta work 11-7 tomorrow then i'm g ville bound to see my man! hopefully i won't have to work til 7. maybe tai will be nice and let me off early!!!! work at the pig is going good. learning everything pretty fast. its not that hard though!
tomorrow night i get to go out with my boyfriend! oh by the way i told my daddy how serious we are and he was so perfect. he likes daniel and knows that we're gonna be together forever! he's even happy for me! i'm so happy!!! <333
well i'm gonna head to bed. you guys have a wonderful night!

in love

well i know it sounds abousolutely crazy--but i am in love. its so fun.
i started my new job on tuesday. my second night was tonite. its not so bad actually. its pretty decent. this weekend is my last weekend to work at chick fil a. thank God!!! i have to work friday nite and 11-7 on saturday, then i get to come home. and spend the rest of the weekend with my boyfriend!! we're probably gonna go to church with meg and wes this weekend, that is if meg doesn't change the plans as usual.
well thats about all thats going on right now.

bcf just cracks me up!!

bcf is so funny to me! daniel and i walked around the lake yesterday 3 times (at bcf that means you're getting married--told you my school is stupid!). we did it just to see how many people would say something to us. it sooooo worked. it was absolutely hilarious how many people came up to ust today to ask when we're getting married! anyways thats just how boring the ville is. hahaha.
then there are some people who i don't think are happy for us. i mean i know that everything happened fast, but we love each other. there's nothing else to it. shoot, these people have no room to judge. i just think they're too immature.
i met some more peole tonite. two of his really good friends. they are so much fun and really sweet. the four of us are going to church and out tomorrow nite. it will be fun.
oh my gosh i almost forgot to tell yall i got a job today! at the piggly wiggly. it'll be different, but at least i can stay in town and daniel and i can get involved in a church together. i think it will be good for us.
well thats the most exciting stuff happening in my life right now. so i'm gonna go do homework now. have a great night!! <333

great days

i would just like everyone to know how much i love daniel adkins. yes i just used the term love. i know that sounds so stupid and typical of baptist college of florida students. but danget i am not just another statistic to add to those of bcf who just got married just for the heck of it. i never ever ever ever (do i make myself clear) thought that i would meet someone at THIS college! but danget when you're not looking God just seems to bless you in ways you never thought possible! i really just love the word i used earlier to describe what i feel for him---SMITTEN! that is the greatest word. to me it means i can't stop thinking about him. i pray for him all the time. and oh my gosh he met my parents this weekend. and my dads side of the family. thats a big deal considering we've only been together for 5 days. but what people say is so true--"when ya know ya know!" my family loved him. its great. i've never met someone so selfLESS and who thinks about what they can do for me all the time more than daniel. he's sooooo amazing!!
so the funeral went as well as a funeral can go. tiff and erin and mrs. pat are 3 amazing women. they took it better than i ever could!!! it was a great service though. bro don said exactly the write words. God spoke through him as usual. he talked about how great a man and how much a family man mr. jerry was. it was so nice!
so other than that stuff, i'm still working my 2 jobs. i'm gonna go to the piggly wiggly to see if i can get a job tomorrow though. so that way i don't have to go home anymore and daniel and i can get involved in a church.
well i'm gonna get back to "work" now. ha. that means i'm gonna do my homework now! <333

happy as can be!

wow life is good right now. i just want to praise God for how everything is! schools a little hectic but thats just school. my family is healthy. my bills are paid for now. i have food to eat. i have a car. God even decided to bless me with a wonderful man in my life! gosh danget daniel adkins is so freakin awesome. i couldn't have asked for a better man. he is so selfLESS. he's just amazing. i can't believed God thinks i deserved someone as great as him. God is good!
i went to the viewing for tiff's dad tonite. it was a little hard not to cry. but it wasn't all sad. jerry lewis was a christian and a godly man at that! he's now in heaven. he has touched many lives. i even heard a story that b/c of the witness he showed while he was alive that there was a guy at a local high school who wanted to know how to become a christian. how exciting. he left a legacy thats worth something. he wasn't famous by any means but he was one of the nicest men i've every known! tomorrows the funeral. our last good byes to "dad." but i just want to remember that its not a sad thing. now mr. jerry's not in any more pain. and he won't every have to suffer again!
tomorrow nigt i get to go back to the ville to see my man. i'm so excited! its sad--we can hardly go a day without seeing one another. hahaha.
well yall have a great rest of the weekend. <333

wow!

oh my gosh. i think i'm just smitten. daniel adkins is so amazing. i'm so glad i did not settle for what i had! no more tony, no more jerald, no more stupid LITTLE boys!!!
this is so crazy cause i just got to know him starting yesterday. we can hardly spend anytime without each other. i started teasing my roommate that we were turning into to a replica of her and her man. like a week or two ago i was the girl practically gagging just looking at how love sick those two are, but now its me. so silly.
well i gotta go do some homework. yall have a freakin awesome night! <333

faster than a blink

well guys yesterday one of my best friends' daddy died. it was very sad. i'm pretty close to that family so i gotta go to town this weekend to go to the viewing and the funeral. it happened so very fast. i just talked to tiff monday about all this. and they were told he had a week to a month left. and now all the sudden he's gone. it was the best situation though. he died in no pain and at home. i'm glad for that.
well other than that i finally met the guy in the philosophy class for real. we had dinner at the house wtih keith and lins last nite then we went to look at a house for keith and him to live in next semester. then to dothan cause everyone knows there's nothin to do here! it was so amazing. i really like him. and he asked if we could go out again and Lord knows i wanted to scream. but i calmly just told him yes. woooohooooo! he's such a cutie.
well back to work. have a great day!

chillin in the ville

well its monday and as usual nothing exciting is happening. just going to classes and hanging out at work. but today i introduced myself to this really cute guy in my philosophy class. he's really sweet.
i'm a little sad b/c i found out that my childhood best friend's dad is dying. and he only has probably a week to a month left. this just breaks my heart and hurts alot cause he's one of those father figures in my life. i love him and his family so much. so please pray for his family!
other than that school is going fine. grades are going up a little so thats good.
talk to you guys later.

feeling a little more accomplished

well today i am feeling a LITTLE more accomplished. i just always feel so behind lately. like i forgot something, or i have SOMETHING ELSE to do. oh my gosh. there's always so much to do. i have this due in one class. and paper due in another. too crazy for me. but today i got some homework done here at work. now i need to start working on practicing my voice stuff cause my lesson is tomorrow and the Lord knows i'm never prepared for that. and i have a test in psych tomorrow.
i'm hoping to hear about a job soon. i applied for a job at a church as basically a childrens intern. but i still haven't heard about that and thats been at least a month ago. so i'm over it. now i'm waiting to hear about a retail job that my best friend has been trying to get for like a year. she said they are needing some part-timers at night again. so she's putting in a good word for me AGAIN. keep your fingers crossed--or better yet just pray for me!
well this weekend will be fun! i'm going home friday to work, then i'm gonna go see my family who is out at the state park camping right now. then on saturday i'm gonna work 11-7, then hang out with nicholas. and probably go camp out with the fam for one nite. woohoo. it'll be interesting as usual!
tonite i'm gonna keep my habit of walking when i got off work. then i'm gonna hit the books for a little while after dinner. then probably walk a little again. tring to shed a few pounds! :) but other than that fun stuff i won't be up to much. wouldn't want to break tradition of living in a boring little country town. hahaha.
have a wonderful afternoon and night!

blah blah blah

ok so today has definitely reminded me of the jingle "blah blah blah." its just been blah for real! last nite i babysat for my boss. then i went to go get some stuff from a friends house. by the time i got back it was 230. so i skipped my 9 oclock class. which i guess is ok. but i was out of sync the rest of the day. so now i'm trying to work extra hard to get back on track. but oh well. thats the price i pay for trying to be social while in college. no sleep. ha.
well now i'm sitting at work being totally bored! as usual. but hey i'm getting paid so i guess its ok. but i just am not motivated to do homework while i'm here. i need to go to the library. i need 5 sources to start on a paper. and i learned today that i can write a 12 page paper for philosophy to get extra credit. and i'm supposed to be writing 2 article reviews for psychology. and i think i bombed my old testament midterm. thats gonna suck!!!
i gotta tell you about this cutie in my philosophy class. he's the future roommate of my roommate's boyfriend. it's crazy. my roommates trying to introduce us. its funny. well anyways it was a feel good day b/c he was totally looking at me in class today.
well i guess i should get busy writing and studying.

a new chapter

this weekend was a crazy one. i've had alot of things go on lately. i've started realizing that, yea, i did alot of growing up this summer, BUT it was not the end of the growing. i've been working on the concept that God is enough in life. i don't need anything else. but thats a hard concept to swallow. there are so many temptations and things that i enjoy that i just should not be doing, but some of these things are almost like a drug to me. i enjoy them, so i try to justify. well its time to stop. i've hurt too many people who mean so much to me. i've realized that these things aren't just hurting and effecting me, but also my best friend, my roommate, my other best friend aka my sister, and most of all my family. i've been such an awful friend and person lately. well i've said i'm going to quit many times, but i am just so hurt and i've hurt the people that mean the most to me so much that its really time to quit this time. its jsut time to grow up! and that means i have to leave all my childish and immature relationships behind. its time for a new lindsay. one who turns to God when she's tempted. and when she feels alone. it feels so good to pour my heart out like this. but i'm such a creature of habbit. it's gonna take some really hard work to stick this out. but i've got great friends and the Best Friend ever-my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ-to help me out. i just wish i could fast forward time a little so it wouldn't hurt so much!
well school is going well. its overwhelming as usual. i am taking 16 hours though. but i want to graduate and thats what its going to take.
anyways i had a great weekend spending time with one of my best friends nicholas. he's one crazy guy. but he's going into the army. and i will miss him so i'm spending as much time with him as possible. we watched a movie and stayed up late on friday. then we went to play pool and stayed up late again on saturday nite. then he came to see me sing in church on sunday. i was so excited, cause nicholas doesn't make it to church very often. then we went to a movie. it was fun just spending time with him. but then i had to come home and do homework. that sucked. i had a midterm on monday that i had to study for, but i think i bombed it. but i hope not. i gotta make the grade!
well i'm gonna go be bored at work for another hour and a half or two.

life

i am so blessed with a wonderful best friend and roommate! my best friend lets me vent. and my roommate gives great advice. i am very grateful for both.
last night a door closed in my life. i'm so glad, i've been trying to push it closed for a couple weeks now. but it was not in my hands. but i finally got closure and it feels great. but this problem messed with a good thing thats going in my life. so i'm really confused right now. i just don't want to get so involved with someone to find out that i'm being played. its a little scary.
well this weekend i have to go home again. gotta work tonite and tomorrow. then i gotta sing at church on sunday. i really want to find a job here so i don't have to go home every weekend. i have been going home to work almost the whole time i've been in school, and i'm ready to really live on my own for a while. don't get me wrong, i love my family but its hard to grown up when you're with them all the time!
well gotta get back to class. yall have a great friday!

too much

dude life is so boring and yet so hectic. i have these papers do in this class. a quiz everyday in that class. some stupid poems to analyze in another. some of my classes just seem so meaningless to me. i guess i'm just ready to be done. but hey next semester i will be a senior. and after this semester i will only have 3 semesters plus some summer classes! woohoo!!!

plus i'm just plain bummed about my jobs. the one here at the school doesn't bother me too much. i just don't like office jobs. but the one in pc i absolutely detest! i don't get paid enough and i'm in a management position. plus i just don't like going home every weekend. but i'm gonna try to find a job in chipley or dothan. work a few nights a week. and during the day on saturday. and find a church around here.

i'm really sad that my man lives 30 minutes away. he used to live here in town back in the day when we first started dating. it was nice. i saw him almost every nite. but i know he was miserable living in this town just like i am. so i think its best that he lives where he does cause i want him to be happy and stay focused the way he is right now. man i love him!

well enough complaining. i got to chill with my best friend today. we took a 20 minute nap. and watched days of our lives. and we cleaned the kitchen together. and just got to hang out. i'm so glad we've been able to do more of just that this semester. last semester was just too hectic for us. last nite we got to go to labambas together. its our fave restaurant. it was her, wes, and me. but it was wednesday, wes' only nite off so we just ate dinner and then i went back home. but i had so much fun! i hope to get to do that more often once i get a decent paying job!

well this has been fun, but i'm gonna go for now. have a wonderful day!

I LOVE MY BEST FRIEND!!!

Just incase you guys didn't already know....I have the most amazing best friend in the entire world! Today we came to amazing discovery that we can't stay mad with one another very long! Thats just great! I fixed her spagetti for lunch because she's been really busy and needed a good meal!

can't help lovin that man of mine

did you know thats the name of a song. its an old song. but it describes how much i love my man. he's crazy. people ask why. but i just can't help lovin that man of mine! he's so cute wish i had a pic to share with yall!! i will soon hopefully. i got to see him last nite. it was so fun. i always get so excited to see him cause he lives 30 minutes away and i don't get to see him often. i might even get to see him tonite. my roomie wants him to come down cause she's not going to pc for church tonite. she has to study for midterms but she wants to hang out with us so she can place her seal of approval on him....hahahaha!!! that cracks me up! well i gotta go for now.

so bored!!!

hey guys i am so bored. tuesdays and thursdays are my work and homework days. i have two classes. one at 830 am which i hate! its english 152. my teacher is the devil. she's awful! and then i have another at 1230pm. but at least i like that class! its womens ensemble. its fun. its my time to just sing and not worry about things. and the rest of the day i work. which normally means i go in and run some erronds then do my homework the rest of the time. but my boss is the coolest. well i gotta run for now.

daddy's little girl

well today i got this email from my daddy. you guys need to know how much of a daddy's girl i am. it has really been hard to be such a daddy's girl lately. we're on two totally different pages. its getting hard to grow up. you see, i love someone that he has said is not welcome in his house. these words were said because the man i love has not always been the best to me. he has had to learn the hard way in alot of things lately. he has decided to grow up finally and i love him so i'm gonna be there for him. he's working so hard and i see the change. but my daddy's just so protective and so its gonna take alot of time for him to see that. i hope he comes around soon! i just wish he knew how i felt about tony. i wish i could tell him the things tony and i talk about. our future! its really hard to talk to my parents now even though they still act like none of this ever happened. they love only me. that hurts. i want them to grow to love tony. in alot of ways i am really jealous of my sister. because her boyfriend has not always acted like a man either. it was just a month or so ago when my parents were forbidding her to see him. but now all the sudden he's proven himself to them. i hope my day comes along. man i love that boy! i mean man actually!
well other than that life is going well. its busy though. i wish i could get done with school faster. i'm starting to think about this summer too. i think i might be staying at school to take some classes. i gotta get done with school! plus if i go to school around here at the community college in dothan i may be able to go to school with my best friend. and maybe even talk tony into taking some classes.
well guys---lots of homework, so i gotta run!
as meg would say----
holla back----woot woot!!!